It wasn't me.

A whirlwind of ideas and thoughts going on right now. All good.
Too much to list really. Here are a few..

www.thesecret.tv

www.abraham-hicks.com

www.powerfulintentions.com

www.gooddogexpress.com

I had to cut myself off the JB boards entirely. To wean myself slowly would have been painful. Until yesterday, I was fine just thinking of all the wonderful memories of J and content knowing that he's well and off working and recording on his new CD UNTIL I got an e-mail from Lesley regarding the technical difficulties poor Billy's been having with the boards. Here I am thinking it was some divine intervention making it easier for me and my addiction by having me look at "This page cannot be displayed" when the overwhelming feeling came upon me and I would log on.

I heard the site was hacked and Lesley gave me an alternate link. And...here I thought I was cured.
Just a note to James. I didn't do it. I swear.

Trin

The Secret...

Everywhere I'd look around, whether it be in my e-mail, on a post or someone telling me face to face, "The Secret" popped up unexpectedly everywhere. The day I finally gave in and checked out the site was the day I knew there was more to life than the one I was living. I just had to buy the DVD and check it out for myself.

The night I watched it was the turning point. Somehow, I knew this all along but could never pin point exactly what I should have been doing. Months prior to watching The Secret, I had a breakdown. The majority of the thoughts that ran through my head were "What am I doing here? There's gotta be something more to life than this. What is the meaning of my life?" I believe The Secret was revealed to me because of these questions. After all, when you ask...you will receive.

Now that I know The Secret, I'm able to look at life in a new light. I'm a more positive happy person with great visions of my future and the future of those around me. Already, I'm seeing signs of the Law of Attraction working for me instead of against me. What a blessing! I am so greatful for having the opportunity to know the secret to a happy more fulfilling life and I have an irresistable urge to share this Secret with everyone I know so that it may benefit them.

Just recently, I have seen money pop up in unexpected places (mind you, the amounts were small but I'm ever so grateful for them none-the-less and I'm looking forward to receiving much larger amounts), I've received the new laptop computer I've always wanted, the computer screen at work was replaced with a flat screen, my job review with an increase in pay, my husband's new job proposition (which I know is going to be prosperous for the both of us) not to mention the excitement and joy I feel from knowing the secret makes me giddy with anticipation.

I'm so happy and greatful for many things.....my wonderful job which allows me to spend my free time playing/creating/exploring/reading on-line, my wonderful family, my good health, my new found friend, my trusty reliable car, the house that I call home, my eye sight so that I may be able to write this so freely and effortlessly and my hearing so that I may listen to the most talented artist... James Blunt.

The other day I printed out my very own check from the Universal Bank (un)limited for the amount of One Million dollars. I know what I need to do with this money. A certain portion will pay off my mortgage of course, then I'll secure a place for Peter so that he can have a stress free place to work, I'd have to plan a family vacation to Disneyland, and give some away to "Doctors Without Boarders" because I've always believed that you should always give back after receiving...after all, it's the Law of Attraction...isn't it.


Trin

My Life Is Brilliant....

As I awaited the call from Vegas, I fooled around with the new laptop Pete bought on Saturday night. I played around with the music files then watched "The Secret" on the DVD that arrived that previous Friday and felt really good about life and the future.
Just as Pete was falling asleep, I heard the phone ring. It was almost 2am and I knew Lindsey was on the other side ready to let me listen in on the last song of James Blunt's tour....You're Beautiful.

After our hello's I listened with glee as I heard the crowd roar with appreciation when James played the infamous tune. My eyes filled with tears as I envisioned the band and Billy who I'm sure was astounded at the fact that so many boardies were there. Listening in was like embracing all the energy and love from that room in Vegas and filling my heart with such unimaginable joy...such excitement and appreciation. An overflow of emotions that no one other than a JB fan would truly understand.

I wiped away the happy tears as I thanked Lindsey and wished her a wonderful night with the rest of the boardies.

The connection from Vegas wasn't the best but the "phone" rendition of YB was like listening to a recorded live version. Even so, I felt my soul overflow with happiness for both the boardies who attended and James. The last show of the year should bring about some happy and sad feelings for him. He must feel overwhelmed at all the support given during that particular show...more so than any other...and I'm grateful for having the opportunity to share that with James thanks to Lindsey.

I only wished Maia could have shared a part of it with me as well....

Trin

Starting over....

Ok, today is my official weigh in day, 6 weeks before Christmas and an opportunity to lose the extra 10-15lbs I've put on since I last quit my "diet" about 6 months ago. Well, I shouldn't say quit but "strayed" is a better way of putting it.

I've been on plan for the day and the only problem I've encountered is not finishing my meals. Yeah, I'm NOT hungry. I suppose it's my body adjusting to my new/old eating style. Don't be surprised if a week or so down the line, you see my hunger increasing again and I'll be bloggin about eating brussel sprouts for dessert. Umm..I hope you know that I'm joking.

Actually, I think my lack of hunger is due to the fact that I have a very sore throat. Even drinking water hurts when I swallow. I hope it gets better and I won't need to take any antibiotics.

Speaking of sick...
I was pissed last night. Peter knew that I was re-starting my diet plan. He also knew that I was sick but it seems as though he turns a deaf ear when the kids are constantly needing me. It's as though he sabatoges my efforts on purpose (or not) just so that I'll give up. I've explained to him that I was disappointed in the fact that I get no support from him when it comes to my weightloss. Sure, he can talk but actually helping me is a different story. Perfect example: Last night he just tuned everything and everyone out while he watched TV. The kids were constantly calling/wanting me while I was cooking 4 different meals for the week and he did nothing to support me. I felt sick, my back ached and I just felt like crawling into a hole to die and yet...he did nothing until I explained how disappointed I was. By the end of it all he put the kids to bed while I lay on the couch motionless and without an ounce of energy left.

I think he felt bad about it because he called me today to find out how I was feeling or maybe the reason he called was to ask me to pick up Danica tonight since he had to go to his friends shop to start up an engine. Who knows.

Saw Stella at lunch today. Went to Williams for a coffee. Went by too quickly...as usual.

Trin

Plan plan plan?

Here I am at the end of yet another miserable Tuesday just waiting until I can leave work to spend some time with the people that matter most to me.

Maia should be included in that list. She gave me the most wonderful surprise today. A box with a card, a bracelet with turquoise beads, a Bob Snider CD which I can't wait to listen to and two gifts for the kids. Not to mention, a cheat sheet for the book we've been reading, "How to Talk so Kids will Listen and Listen so Kids will Talk". That book should come free with every mother leaving the hospital with their newborn. A mandatory read. Definately.

I got an e-mail from Annec today. It mentions how some boardies who are going to Vegas would like to share James' last song of the night, You're Beautiful live via Skype.com. I never imagined that could be done let alone anyone extending a hand from the board to have me join in the excitement. I don't think many of them like me there since I commented once on James' character. Seems as though Gena (jerroncase) dislikes me. It seems she always has something to say to me. That's ok. I'm not there to win anyone's approval. I have my opinions and if someone disagrees, that's their problem.

I've also been seriously considering hooking up with the Canadian Club again. The CC is a support group for those who are on the 6WBMO. A support group for people looking to lead happier and healthier lives by losing weight and keeping it off. A great fitness and all natural diet plan everyone should be on. The only obsticle in my way is my lack of determination. I have to psych myself up because I know it'll be a rough road ahead. So, plan plan plan will be my motto from now on. Without planning, I'm doomed. Monday will be my official start date.

Am I excited? umm...not yet.
Trin

Fun at the Science Centre!

We arrived early, around 11am at the Science Centre on Saturday. I knew that Maia and Jasper were going to meet up with us at around 1pm so we had some time to look around, eat lunch and stuff.

The kids and I had a really fun time. I don't think I ever went inside the Kids zone...Danica's most favourite exhibit. I had to admit.... that was my favourite as well. The red pegs where you make an impression of various parts of your body was fun. The marketplace was busy and Danica had wanted to spend more time on the cash register but I explained that it was Saturday and that we'd come back on a weekday next time when it wasn't as busy. Time went by so quickly that we didn't have a chance to see everything. Just another reason to go back though. The kids loved Maia. 'What's not to love? lol
At the end of it all, I wished that Maia and I could have talked more. It's kinda hard to do when you have the kids tugging at your shirt or you have to watch them for fear of having to call security because they went missing.

It tired them out so much that they fell asleep on the drive home. Ahh...a nice peaceful ride home for me is like taking a warm bubble bath on a Sunday afternoon (which is never a possibility btw). What a treat!

Trin

He'll be coming around the mountain when he comes...

I think Pete is coming around.

It's understandable that he's been down these past few days. We finally made an agreement and I apologized for not being more respectful when it comes to him being worried about me.
So, the deal was....I asked him not to scoff at every mention of James Blunt and I promised him I'd be respectful and call him when I'm late.... or not.

We even had a pretty decent discussion about going to Vegas for James' last show of the year (something he'd never consider before this falling out) and I even mentioned having our marriage vows renewed in one of those small chapels while we're down there. And, even though we can't afford it ...It was nice of him even to consider it and listen without putting me down for a change. It's all I ask.

Oh yeah, kids had fun yesterday as they dressed up as cheerleaders. Pete took them out while I gave out candy. There were a total of 5 kids who knocked at the door. Surprising for such a heavily kid populated neighbourhood. I think it was due to the fact that I got home so late from picking up Juliana and we ate before they went out. By that time, kids were already heading home from their candy fest.

I'm also excited about my new cell phone. Yeah...me ....excited! I hated the idea of getting a cell only because it feels like I'm working since I'm on one all day. But....today I decided if my cell phone and I were going to "bond" that I'd personalize it.....my way.
I went to www.atlanticrecords.com and downloaded a few of James' ringtones. Now, I just smile when my phone rings. I've even had to call myself a few times today...LOL!

Trin