Did YOU shave today?

I was sitting at the kitchen table with Peter and one of Pete's friends that I had never met before. In fact I didn't even know his name. He seemed quite shy, dark brown, short spiky hair on top but small curls at the back. He had the most beautiful piercing blue eyes in contrast to his dark hair and spoke Italian very well. So well in fact, that I initially thought he had just arrived from Italy.

I really wasn't paying attention to what they were saying. I didn't care at that moment. I was mesmerized. I lovingly stared at Peter from across the table while they conversed in Italian. Looking at Peter's freshly shaved smooth face stirred something warm inside me. I felt flushed and immediately felt this wonderful urge to kiss him. And...I did.
Every so often, in the middle of this conversation with his friend, an irresistible passion within me sent me to jump at the chance just to feel the smoothness of his face on my mine. He would smile at his friend while I was cupping his soft, strong jaw in my hands. Everytime I would "calm" myself to sit down, a sudden urge would erupt within me sending me lunging toward him once again. Like an animal ...out of control. I couldn't sit for more than 2 minutes without feeling the rush over and over again.

Peter looked at me smiling and I had finally realized that he wanted me to look at his friend. He was incredibly attractive and I was incredibly turned on by the fact that Peter wanted me to be attracted to him. I could feel the blood in my face and chest warm me with excitement. I looked over at his friend and noticed that he too had just shaved. I resisted the urge and held myself back from touching his soft, smooth face for the longest time until I looked over at Peter and he nodded as if to say it was ok. I suddenly jumped at that very moment to kiss his face, knocking over a glass on the table in the process. I could immediately smell the shaving cream and cologne he used to get his face baby soft. It was such a turn on! I put my arms around him and could see him smiling at Peter while I licked his neck and gently sucked on his ear. I longed for him to touch me. I felt a rush of blood within my body; my nipples harden beneath my shirt and the silky wetness between my legs. My wanting felt like a tidal wave of eroticism within me. I wanted his hands on my breasts...caressing, pinching, teasing me into frenzy. I could felt the curls on the back of his head as my hands embraced his neck. I knew the feeling of my hot, wet tongue on his neck would ignite the madness that was to come.....

And....as I awoke this morning feeling quite turned on and content, I didn't miss the chance to kiss Peter and tell him about my dream. Mind you...I didn't mention anything about his friend in this dream but ...In all honesty, I would have loved to.

Trinity

Love/Hate...all about the music.

Ok, just found out that James is booked to play Canada in Montreal, Ottawa and Toronto starting Oct 1st to the 3rd. I know I may have come across like I hate the guy but I really don't. I don't like being deceived and it just feels as though he's been deceiving his fans into thinking he's one type of person rather than another. But...it's all about the music. Right?

To be honest with you, I'd love to go to all 3 concerts but I'm not sure it'll fair well with my other half. Our anniversary is on the 2nd of October and Pete really isn't into James Blunt's music....well, he isn't into anything other than the dance crap they play on the radio so asking him will be asking for a death sentence unless...umm...unless I can sweeten the deal with something for him. Like, the 4 wheeler he's been wanting for the longest time.
Yeah, doesn't seem quite fair does it? I'll spend $300.00 to get what I want and and he spends $1,300.00.

Why does it have to be like this. He goes on to make fun of our friends Pat and Caroline and how Pat gives his wife Caroline things so that he'll be able to take his car out for the weekend or buy a new distributor or something....meanwhile, I feel like I have to get Pete in a good mood by giving into his whims in order to get what I want. or he blows off the handle!
Normally, I wouldn't care but I can't just spend $1,300 bucks and not feel the crunch afterwards as I'm the one who worries about the finances and pays the bills. We're not talking $50 bucks here...we'te talking over a thousand! It's just not fair.

James isn't the only one I have a love/hate relationship with at the moment.

Trin

In Mourning....

I've been in mourning. It has been 14 years.

Today is my friend's birthday. Everytime I listen to GML it brings me back to a time when my heart was overflowing with passion and love for a man who without warning, tore it in two.

I still believe he was the one. He once lit a fire within my soul that will now forever be murky and dim. Proof that true love never dies....and I carry on, a torchured, vacant corpse.

I've forgotten the sound of his voice although I can still see the smirk on his face, the way he licked his lips and smiled and the blue of his beautiful eyes. Images of him haunt my thoughts and today I'm plagued by feelings of sadness that we can't be together to share a birthday kiss. Happy Birthday Dany.

I'm so fucked.

Trin

I'm a quitter.... I'm an eater....I'm a player....

I'm a quitter. It's been 5 days since my last cigarette. I have to admit it has been fairly easy. I think I've only been tempted once at home basically because I was bored and during my morning break here at work since now I have nothing to do during my 15 minutes. Now, if only giving up chocolate would be this easy.

Went to Rosa's Place to celebrate uncle Joe's 65th birthday party yesterday. Ate like a pig. Antipasto, two kinds of pasta, tender veal and lemon chicken with fresh veggies, salad and fish with fruit and cookies afterwards......The food there is unbelievably good. It's just too bad it's incredibly expensive.

Bored? Watch this!

Feel like a dope. I took two hits of Benadryll this morning and I feel tired and sleepy. Dr. S suggested I take it for the itching from the operation. It does fuck all so, that'll be the last time I take it.

Back on plan for the week. I don't want to be but know I'll be disappointed in myself if I don't give it my all.
I'm still waiting for the Lep tickets to come. I'll be one happy camper once those come in.

My guitar playing is coming along quite nicely. I'm changing chords much faster now. It's just too bad I only have a limited amount of time to play. Just learned the songs Billy, "High" and No Bravery by James Blunt, Colours by Amos Lee and of course the first two songs I learned, Free Falling by Tom Petty and "Leavin' on a Jet Plane" ....I don't remember who sings that one.

I'm pretty excited on how quickly I've been able to pick it up actually. I took music lessons as a child but the notes were never able to stick. I guess you just have to be "into" it no matter how old you are.

Trin

GLOBAL FITNESS

Forget LA. It's all a big money making scheme. They get you to join and then keep hounding you to buy their bars which have no nutritional value what-so-ever. I once asked about the bars. You know what the girl said? "Stop worring yourself about how it works...it just does!" Needless to say that I'm not one to be happy about "something just working". I want to know how.

A couple of weeks ago I discovered www.global-fitness.com. I had a few questions for Chad (the owner/operator) and he (no kidding) immediately e-mailed back with a reply and a 90 day free offer.
I had to take it. I was so impressed with his answer and the quickness and honesty of his reply. Nobody had ever gotten back to me so promptly and with such enthusiasm before. Now I have several personal trainers behind me, all experts in their field to answer any and all of my lame questions...lol

I've already been assisted with my diet and exercise regimen. Chad has corrected a couple of things I was doing wrong like eating my biggest meal in the morning and laying off the carbs at dinner time (sounds like I should have figured that one out myself huh?) and Dani's suggestions with my weight training routine is easily liveable (thank God). All in all there's some free terrific info on there about training if you're interested. Then, there's some fanominal info for members as well. I'm very happy I joined. If you're thinking of joining, mention me and Chad will probably give you a deal as well.

My 12 week goal is from July 10th - Sept 29th (my birthday). I want to be down at least one dress size by then. Funny. It's not a sacrifice anymore. It has become more of a good habit to eat healthy and workout. Mind you, there have been days when I don't feel like working out and days when I've been invited to a dinner and I end up eating things I know aren't healthy but... it all seems to balance itself out in the end. Life isn't perfect and neither am I. Even though I expect alot from myself, there are some days when I just don't give a shit.

Trin

Feeling like crapola...

I've just come back from a week's worth of a pretty much "shitty" vacation.

Danica was sick during the first half of the week and Juliana was sick the last half. I felt really sick last night with the chills and sweats, not to mention the head cold that nearly made me want to just chop off my head for any hope of relief.

This morning wasn't any better although I wasn't cold anymore. I woke up with a sore throat and one wicked headache. I don't feel like eating or smoking which I suppose in hindsight is a good thing.

Luckily I got much of what I needed to do out of the way on Thursday of last week. Saw Dr. S, Dr. K and finished off my bracelet tattoo. It's now all the way around my wrist. Patrick "Da Man" did a hell of a job even though he charged me $70.00 and didn't have change for a $20.00.

Danica will be staying with her Nonna for the rest of the week. Ahhh....peace. lol

My diet's going well. Well, right up until I got sick yesterday. I have about 2 months until the concert and my birthday which are my goal dates.

Trin